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Mar. 27th, 2010


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Dec. 23rd, 2009

D a n c e

I'm so beefed out now. HAHA. Was spending my time in some unusual way, dance. hahaha, gawd knows when was the last time i performed and when will be the next time. Looks like never. I'm not those type of people who goes around chasing their dreams cause see, these kinda things don't happen to me. Maybe not yet but I'm sure it won't. I know, I'm such a pessimist. Maybe I am cause of the very fact that I didn't make it pass the dance auditions at LaSalle. I guess I'm still lingering on to the fact that my dance is just not good enough. And for that, I'm embarrassed or rather shy now to dance in front of people.. that's why I dance in my room where only 4 walls, a ceiling, a floor and piles of stuff are looking. Yeah I just finished dancing to Single Ladies and I just can't seem to get that middle and last bit of it. I've been working on it since last year and stopped halfway and started again. I really and absolutely love dancing to Single Ladies, though I'm not one. Yeah I need a shower now cause I'm all sweaty.. ewwww haha

I thought the quote below was very inspirational. My pessimistic level went down just a notch after reading it.
I read it on my cousin's(Suzanna Hendricks) facebook profile.

"RT @RevRunWisdom:
Great ppl r known for 1 big thing.
el Jordan= Basketball..
el Simmons = Hip Hop culture..
Bill Gates= P.C..
Donald Trump= Real Estate.

Melanie-Tracy Felicia Hendricks= Dance ???

Jun. 8th, 2009

I swear I knew

You set my soul at ease
Chased darkness out of view
Left your desperate spell on me
Say you feel it to
I know you do
Ive got so much more to give
This cant die, I yearn to live
Pour yourself all over me
And Ill cherish every drop here on my knees.

May. 19th, 2009

Make it all mine.

And I like it natural,
No need for chemicals.
Foggin?up my senses
You're making me sensless
You're calling it sexual.

I can't wait baby
I don't wanna wake before
The dream is over
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes i... I know it
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes i'll make it all mine
I'm gonna rock your world.

Apr. 13th, 2009

A love so pure

In these trials I face,
I pray you humble me.
Humble me.
I want to be more and more like you Jesus.
I was crucified on that day with Christ
Nailing you there with sin, accepting you.
I nailed my soul to the cross
And now my life begins
This world so cold but your love keeps me warm
My father holds me in his nailed scarred hands
which I put there
But for some reason,
He still loves me with all his heart.
Even though I betray him constantly,
He always keeps His arms open.
Waiting for me.
Til I give up my old ways.
God my Father, you are the only one that can give me comfort
You touch my heart in such a way
That all I can do is to cry your name.
Jesus Christ I love you.
My heart aches for your love.
A love so pure.

Apr. 8th, 2009

You've got mail ! Part II

Baby you're a winner
From: Melanie-Tracy (melcoolangel@hotmail.com)
Sent: Wed, 8 Apr 2009 12:12:38
To: riddick_cage@hotmail.com.

Baby, I'm gonna make you say you love me after reading this! Trust and believe these words that is going to be unfolded right in front of your eyes. Let's start off with a simple, I love you. Yes, I really do b. Tell me baby, is it you that is gonna continously put a smile on my face? Is it you who is gonna make every single day of my life worth living? Is it you who'll be with me through thick and thin? Is it you who's gonna make me feel soooooo love? Is this love? I never knew that love could feel like this ! Sleepless nights, daydreaming afternoons and the ever-so you-can't-get-outta-my-mind kinda situation! You're constantly on my mind. 24/7 to be exact. I love it! Never stop loving me Glenn, don't. You really have a way of moving me.. I wanna wrap my arms around you all day. I wanna kiss your lips till it turns red. I wanna whisper into your ear, I love you.. I wanna do wonders with you b! I really wanna. G, you make it real for me. I know that this may sound all cliche and all but it's so true. It came from my heart. There's never a day that went by that my love for you has deterioriated. Not even an inch.

What has happened, has happened. Let it remain untouchable. I love the way we are right now. Simple yet loving every bit of it. Simplicity is a bliss. I don't want any tension, I don't want any negative emotions running through us. I know babe bout what you're thinking. "what about that night?" yes, I was foolish I was dumb. This list can go on and on and on.. I know. I'm sorry. I should have been more mature to understand the situation. More understandable and that you were just looking out for me cause why? you love me? For heaven's sake, I should be thanking you. Though it was straight to the point and it a way quite hurtful, I still should thank you. Cause it was the truth. There's no wrong in speaking about the truth. The truth hurts. And that night, it really pierced my heart. My heart crumbled for I realised that yes, I was in the wrong. It's just so hard for me to admit my mistakes. I don't like doing it. Who does tell me? Admitting that I'm in the wrong seems to be a more farfetched and a harder thing to say than an apology. It sucks. But I have realised it now.

Seventeen and I'm still learning. I thought I knew it all. I thought wrong. I still have a long way more to go in my life to earn that freedom. What is freedom anyway? Second thoughts, maybe I don't wanna have that freedom no more. I want my mum to constantly ask me, where am i? who I'm with? what time am I coming home? It's through these words babe, I realised that my mother cares so freakin' much for me! How dare I say and question, "does my mother really love me? My mother hates me! I hate her!" How dare I ! See Glenn, you've opened up my eyes to everything in life. Not just in my family or about the morals in life but also to love.

L O V E. I love you. You thought me the meaning of love. I wanna love you more and more. Baby take me deeper in love with you! Hold me tight in your embrace. I wanna hear your heartbeat go faster and slower at the same time. Thank you love, for caring. Thank you love for being who you are to me. I don't see ow anybody else can take your position as a boyfriend. Please b, you're more than that! And you know it, I can sense your smile right now! hahaha. Baby I love you. If it is God's will, our relationship will last a lifetime. How beautiful so beautiful that will be. How beautiful you are, inside-out. I freakin love you like crazzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

G L E N N ! Oh sweet Glenn, I love you.. no more, no less.. I just do.

Baby you're a winner
Didn't even take you 12 rounds to do it,
You got that title now
I'll tell the whole world up high

To give it up for my guy!

Apr. 7th, 2009

You've got mail!

I miss you, I love you, come back to me‏
From: Glenn Gomez (riddick_cage@hotmail.com)
Sent: 07 April 2009 04: 28AM
To: melcoolangel@hotmail.com

Good morning love!

When I'm with you, I feel alive. You bring to me a happiness that no one else ever could. You bring to me a love I have never known before. I could not imagine what my life would be like without you. You have touched my heart in ways no one could ever comprehend. I love being with you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you(if thts ok with u)hehe

Every day I wake up thanking God for you. You have given me so much, and I don't know if I will be able to give back all that you have given me. I know you are feeling lost and moody this few days, I want to be you're guiding light when you are lost. Be your comforter through all your trials and sorrow. I will be your rock. Baby just lean on me.

Sometimes I myself feel lost and out of touch, but when you’re there, I feel safe. Your voice soothes me, like a simple BABY I LOVE YOU. I could sit here and try to tell you just how I feel or what i think, but I can't find the words other than I am ecstatic we met and have gotten together after all the things we've gone through.

I want to tell you that the love I have for you is undying. It is a love that is strong and enduring and will stand the test of time. I truly feel blessed that you have become a part of my life, and I cannot wait for the day that we can join our lives together. I want to lie next to you at night and fall asleep in your arms. I want to wake to your beautiful smile. I want to share in your joys and sorrows. I want to be your everything, because you are everything to me. This is the love I want for us baby.

I promise to always love you and always hold you in my heart. I will always be here for you when you need me, and I will love you no matter what life brings us. I love you, baby, come back to me.

I miss hearing you when you are high and the softness of you when you mellow down. It is like I lost you somehow, what you are feeling and what you are thinkin I dont know right now. Get well soon dear, come back to me, i want my baby girl back. I miss you and I love you.

No, I'm sorry.. I love you.

Apr. 6th, 2009

Down, set, go.

Oh sweet angel of mercy,
with your grace like the morning,
wrap your lovely arms around me.

Lasalle was a no no.
Poly is a hello.
why how what I don't know.
fuck it,
just give it a go.

Mar. 31st, 2009

Spontaneous exciting

On the twenty-eighth day
Of the third month
In the year 2009
There we sat in the total blindness of the city lights.
The only source of light were the stars
That twinkled ever more brightly
This special night.
A soft kiss you gave upon my fingeres,
A picturesque site!
A captivating smile you gave afterward
As I stared into your luring eyes.
I could just stare at your face for the rest of my days.
Beautiful is the word!
Indeed I can't help but to feel happy.
Deep within me I was dancing
Every vessl in me pranced for you uplifted my spirit!
As magnificent as you are,
You did not stop there.
You came closer and whispered into my ear
A simple 'I love you'
Those three wors of utter sweetness made my day.
For it was genuine and affirming
Something people take for granted in the living
As you brushed your face from my ear to my lips
A tingling sensation you gave
With just one kiss. Spontaneous exciting.
We touched each other's faces.
Brushed my hair, giggled here and there.
All night long our souls interwined
Never wanting each hour/minute/second to run out of time.
For it was special.
A pure bliss of perfection.
Hold me tight. Stay by my side.
Let me be the one who calls you baby all the time.
The one who calls you baby.

Glenn and I went for Novena last Saurday (which is by the way making very good progress-9th week) and soon ended up being lost in the city. We  wanted to go to St. Joseph's church for mass that day which would supposedly commence at 5.30pm, according to G. We walked to the bus stop opposite Novena church( must cross over-head bridge all!!!) to find for the 851 bus which passes by St. Jo's church. No 851 there. So we walked back! more than a 100 steps, I counted. haha. Took the 851 from Novena Square and thus made our way. Passed by LaSelle, hehe. And dropped down the bus stop after that, cause apparently I saw a church in which I thought was St. Jo's. (a very draggy pressing button sound) WRONG!!!! It was Our Lady of Lourdes! ps, time was 5.10 pm and yes, it was my fault we got lost. hah... walked aimlessly round the place. Passed by Bugis, many many many bulidings and thus we reached our destination! Time, 5. 25pm. Walked into the church and I had this very churchy kinda vibe coming from it. It wasn't air-conditioned, neither did it have any use of high-technological stuff like screens and plasma flatscreens around. Very surreal. Very solemn. I like! G and I stayed for the Divine Mercy and looked around and saw very little ppl. Are you sure mass starts at 5.30pm? Nope, it didn't. It only started at 6! Goodness. hahaha. Now that was your fault!

Ate dinner at Raffles Place and watched the world- world meaning the city of Singapore- go off in total darkness. Well, sort of. It wasn't that dark. Many lights were still swithed on and to be frank, these ppl should really go to hell for voting for global warming. sheeeesh! Anyway, G brought me to Millenia Walk where we talked, laughed and kissed the night away. Spectacular!

And so that really pretty much wraps up the whole of my Saturday.

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