Melanie Hendricks

Can you believe it? I just did 4 dreadful hours of Communication Skills!
Aside from work, I'm wasting time by watching Singapore Idol and I feel so ashamed for them. Yess ashamed for them. They all can't dance and their singing is just awful. Why oh why? Why doesn't Singapore have the next Beyonce or Chris Brown or even Michael Jackson?? Why why why la? Are we really just full of office room people?

Okay so if I had to choose who would win Singapore Idol, it will be Sylvia for the obvious reason that my school is persuading us to vote for her cause she was like from my course in my shcool!! haha yeah. SYLVIA is a Hospitality & Tourism Management graduate from TP! So why is she wasting her time on Singapore Idol? Okay la, shes not bad. Better than the rest though.


Okay I just finished 2 papers this week and now it's down to 4 papers.
French tomorrow (:

After exams, I'm gonna be gyming like MADDDD.
I'm working on my body.

Beautiful


If we crawl
Till we can walk again
Then we'll run
Until we're strong enough to jump
Then we'll fly
Until there is no wind
So lets crawl,
Crawl back to love, Yeah
Back to love

I know it's been long. I'm so tired. I've been procrastinating a lot on my school work. There is really no time for a break. I have to juggle a few things now, school work is considered as a BIG freakin' chunk, plus I'm in the midst of revamping my room for Christmas( gonna paint it Fushia colour, so I decided). New Moon wannabe fans are driving me nuts! I've got a lot going on in my head. Prep for tests has started. I hadda French Mock test yesterday and boy do I need to get started on my revision for that. There is Soccer on Sunday which may or may not be enjoyable, it depends.

Yesterday after school, I decided to take a 45mins journey from school to Glenn's place via 969 bus to visit that poor guy. I bought Fishball Noodle soup! And he hates them! haha. You should see his face eating it. I accompanied him to the doctor and walked our way back to his place. In that walk I realised how far we had come. From all our childishness in the earlier stages of our relationship up til now. We are still working on it, but I can feel so much love now. Unconditional Love. He is truly an angel. And for this Glenn, I love you for loving me and everyone around me. I love you everyday.

So much craziness surrounding me, but you make it real for me.

Good luck to me, yipeee?? Yes! no school tomorrow!
(Bet Cecilia is reading this and is saying to herself "School. What's that?" hahaha )

Hopefully I can finish reading "BREAKING DAWN" by tonight (: I think this is the best book from the TWILIGHT saga.

3rd December 2009!

I can't believe it has been 4 years ago since i started to fall in love with chris brown. haha, it was exactly around this time when his first single "Run It" premiered. It has been one year since "Superhuman", another great hit by CB featuring Keri Hilson, was released. And now, this is gonna add to my collectables.  "I can transform ya!" watch it, his dance is so sleeeeeeeeeeak. He's my inspiration to dance!





I'm still having a really bad day. 

I'm going to doze off in 5 4 3 2 1....

I'm in school now and my eyes are about to close. Actually I'm having Business Computing Skills tutorial now but the teacher left early so yeah, decided to hang around with my classmates. Yeah they're all youtubing bout Korean stuff, like Si Jie and Yee Yit are watching some SNSD(Korean girl band) video then this girl almost fell down while dancing and it was caught on tape. Wan is forever tumblring hahaha so is Eunice. Gao Chang is sitting beside me and playing some game on FB and chatting with his girlfriend on Ebuddy (: hahaha. He saw me typing this..

Yes anyhoos, I just came back from camp and am so so so tired. Camp was awesome, much better than last year. I'm spiritually high but humanly low low low low low low..

God give me the strength to get through this day!

I miss Glenn, have not seen him since thursday.

Happy Birthday Jiaying!!

Looks like tumblr wasn't really working out for me. I dunno I'll just be using both tumblr and LJ i guess...

Gosh, for my own benefit, I'm gonna list all the memorable things I did during the week or since the last time I actually blogged. Damn I'm so hungry. Prata is on it's way! okay anyhoos, i watched two movies this week! I watched Jennifer's Body, more like Magan Fox's body, and Micheal Jackson: This is it. Could have made it three movies but just didn't have the time or even if i had, i'd most probably use the time to do other things like sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeep and to catch up on my tutorials. Seriously, I think i'm a dangggg home-mie person. I just love to stay at home and just walk around my house naked and watch tv. hahaha kidding la, but it really does sound fun right? See I totally digressed from what I supposedly wanted to talk about.

Yess, Jennifer's Body was just sick. In a good way of course. If you have all the time in the world + dunno what to do with at least 7dollars + wanna watch some girl-on-girl action, then by all means, Jennifer's Body is a movie for you! All those gory scenes were how do say?... just plain nasty. Blood squirting everywhere, danggg. No doubt Megan Fox was down right HOT, especially her lips. Go see okay! so kissable. No wonder Amanda Seyfried well.. I don't wanna spoil the movie for ya'll so yeah. You get the jist of it.

Michael Jackson: This is it was another spectacular spectacular movie that I watched. Okay so Saturday started with a hearty lunch @ Marche with Glenn.  The Roasted Ham Crepe was awesome!!! and bread pudding was divine! Glenn had his steak, as always. Yeah he's a steak man. Then we headed to Vivo City's GV to watch MJTII. haha, i love the abbreviation. Too lazy to type the damn title la. I guess if you are an MJ fan/maniac like me, you would really enjoy this movie. Well, it's more like a documentary and nt so much of a movie. You'll get to see MJ's talent first hand. He seemed a little bit stiff and his dancing wasn't so smooth as before. Poor guy. No doubt it was still great! I enjoyd every second/minute/hour in the theatre! And I was surprised and dumbounded when I saw people leaving the theatre halfway. Bloody noobs. Glenn and I laughed about the part where Kenny Ortega, the director, kept agreeing at every single thing MJ was talking about. "yes michael, we'll decrease the sound for you" "yes michael, we'll give you more lights" "yes michael....... " okay i cannot think of anymore. but it was hilarious! and michael was ever so sweet! "all for love" and "god bless" was what he constantly said during rehearsals. What a great lost.

Yesterday, I headed over to chijmes with Glenn and his friends and brother to celebrate Cheryl's birthday. We settled down at Harris and had a couple of drinks. Okay wait, I filled myself with some Meatball Marinara Subway sandwich b4 I went to Harris cause the food there was mindblowingly expensive. Plus i didn't have that kinda money.. chijmes is simply beautiful! oh gosh! i can't believe it was once a chij school. It'll be like schooling at hogwarts or something! Beautiful, just beautiful ( Bel, Oreal! remember Honey??? hahahaha beautiful)

School has been hectic but a little less stress than semester one.

I miss Glenn terribly though I just saw him yesterday. Our plan this semester is that we wont see each other on weekdays unless it's a celebration of smth. Weekends are devoted to him. Speaking of which, they'll be a confi camp this coming weekend I mean tomorrow so seeing him will be out of the picture this weekend. It's good you know, to not see each other all the time. It's also healthy for our relationship. I really want us to work, but there is just soooo many obstacles. All I can do to sustain it is to understand and pray and of course to love unconditionally.

School @ 4pm today. I die die want to see Glenn tonight.
Prata is here!

See the blue tag kinda face beside my dad's face? yup, that's supposedly is my mum's face. Ask Chris! It was his brilliant idea..

We said lets not leave on bad terms
In between those bad words
This could be love right?
Uh, huh
But are we gon' leave
When it's this good?

A heart ain't a brain
But I think
That I still love you
A happy ending
Makes you cry
Cause it ends
When you don't want to
And it makes perfect sense
To end it like the start
How do I explain
This nonsense to my heart?
A heart ain't a brain
But I'm thinking
That I still love you

A whole series of events has taken place since the last time I posted something which was a very very loooong time ago.

Let me start of with the fact that Anberlin rocked Baybeats like hell! I was sooo surprised with myself. Going for gigs, concerts or rather Baybeats was something new to me. Thanks to my brother, I'm now more exposed to such extraordinary events in my life. I'm not that sort who would go for this kinda things but I have to admit that my first trip to Baybeats was ever so exquisite! I enjoyed every minute/hour/second of it. Okay I may sound like a total noob now saying that I really had no idea who Anberlin was till that day. hahaha. Aiya, at least I enjoyed the rockin music they played. For This Cycle also contributed to this very eventful night. I was surprised to bump into old friends at the Esplanade, friends which I had not spoken or seen since primary school. It's amazing to see how music can bring people from all walks of life together. Maybe Madonna was right. Music does make the people come together....YEAH! Okay la, quie irritating ah that song but you get the jist of it.

Oh yeah, guess what? Total anti-climax but anyway I'm working at Manhattan's Fish Market now. No you noobs, it ain't some stall in the wet market or anything but rather another rendition of Fish&Co. but less expensive and no alcohol. bummer.. Okay so maybe Fish&Co. would seem like a better place to go but MFM does offer a wide variety of mouth-watering delightables like the Seafood Platter blah blah blah. Shit! I've been studying the menu knowledge so much that I've officially become a spokesperson for MFM! dannggg nammit. Well, it's sad that my other 2 buddies didn't get the job. Nonetheless, sociallizing with people ain't much of a problem to me. Depends on my mood la like this one. I had my period on my first day of work. Naturally I would feel a sense of not wanting to meet new friends and all and also to put on this damn black face to work. That's so unprofessional and yet I still did it. I had to go to the toilet several times to you know, to change. haha. Thank you staff at MFM for being ever so patient with my nonsense. For without so, my first day of work would seem so horrific and let's just say, the smell of fish would trigger every irritation even more. Thank God I didn't come home smelling like Red Cherry Snapper. Hey, that doesn't seem so bad. Okay I shall rephrase it. Thank God I didn't come home smelling like a dead garoupa or something. Ewwwwww!


and the word hope just reminded me of daffy's lovely tattoo (:
HOPE

i'm dead meat
i think i'm really gonna fail this subject
macroeconomics, i see no point in you!!!

In case you people were wondering where I was the past few days, I was well somehow drifting away from life itself. I go out in life and face all sorts of shit. What do I do? Nothing, absolutely nothing. And by doing absolutely nothing, it hurts more. I can't smile, I weigh myself down. Or at least "she" does. I have issues with a certain someone and I'm hating it. What did I do? Okay, I know but you have some things that ticks me off too you know. To make matters worse, I hate grumbling and feeling like shit. But it's okay. I'm okay, we're okay. I love my mother despite all our imperfections. I love her, I just do. Though things may seem rather awkward in this house, my heart still cares for that woman. After all, she's my mother, I cannot run away from that. So why did I that day? I'm such a loser. Ungrateful, wicked daughter. For what is worth, think what you wanna think of me. At the end of the day, if I'm smiling and things between me and her are A OKAY, then it's all good. I get hurt easily. Through minor actions, I just do. If I had a dollar for everytime I felt hurt, I would seriously probably be a millionaire. Whether it came from friends, family or others, that hurt still counts. Things at home suck. It's still sucking but it's getting better thanks to the wise words from Glenn. He makes everything better, somehow. Though we fight till we wanna kill each other, we still work things out. Though we cry like fuck, fight like fuck and hurt each other like fuck, we still stand. We're rock hard! yeah mun! His birthday is on Monday. But I gave him his sorta present today. teehee. I'll give him the rest tomorrow when I go over to his place for his birthday dinner. OMG! His relatives are going too! I'll be meeting them for the very first time! okay okay breathe breathe, don't hypervantilate. Right, today was just simply spectacular spectacular. I love you Glenn, thank you for today. Though it was your gift, but still thank you love! OMGosh I fuckin love you balls.

As I look into your eyes
And run my fingers through your hair
I taste the sweetness of your neck
As I nibble at your ear

I then whisper words of love
As you answer with a sigh
And in a very sexy way
Your sweet body comes alive

As I soak inside your love
To a sexy love condition
Feeling passions start to rise
While making love in all positions

You give me so much pleasure
For ecstasy is here
With you wrapped inside my arms
To this heated love we share

Now no one can come close
To this love that we inspire
For only you can fill this joy
And the heat of my desire

I feel so dead, tired, disappointed yet I feel contented somehow. I'm feeling so damn fatigue ever since I woke up this very morning. Life as we know now is filled with so much things to do, time for your loved ones, time for school, time to do work and time to just chill. Examiniations are on their way ! Lately, I've not been chilling at all, up till now. Rest is all I ever wanted and when I finally get it, I'm not at ease. My body aches from soccer today. I played like a damn bloody "BLEEP!!". I was so pissed, a whole lotta frustration within me. I'm sooo competitive when it comes to soccer. I can't go on being like this. This is bad. This is a sin. I'm unable to control my anger on the field. I played like crap today F.Y.I. I didn't even get the ball, nobody passed!! And when they did, I missed it. Suck balls.

Nevertheless, my day wasn't totally that bad. Went for 11 45 am mass today with my family, cecilia, beverly and ryan. We had to sit at the place where it was so damn bloody cold. I hadda cough and felt so weak during mass. Mass today was ever so fruitful. I loved Father JJ's homily. OMG I'm feeling sooooo tired.

Okay to cut the story short, I had kway chap for lunch which I was dying to eat but contributed to the cough I had. Went for Bible Sharing. Btw, Emilio, you rock! The session today was beautiful. I loved it, I'm gonna continue in this never ending quest to grow in my spritiual life.. Soccer sucked but a surpirse totally knocked me outta my feet. Glenn oh sweet Glenn came for soccer today. I'm glad the atmosphere was good (considerin the fact that 2 of my ex's was there). Play hard, play fair, play together, have fun. I believe I did not fulfill this sentence today. I apologize guys! It's the time of the month so bear with me aight. Glenn send me home to say hi to my mother and hen he chabutted home. Cecilia, I love you ever so much okay love. Trust and believe me that everything is gonna be okay, everything is gonna be alright, everything is gonna be just fine. HAHAHA, that Chris Brown song. We're here for you..

Dearest Glenn,
look how far we've come.
I'm amazed by you
I'm amazed by  us
We're growing slowly but surely.
We've changed for the better
No more childishness
No more frustrations
Praying together
Loving one another
How can things be bad?
With God, all is good
Amen!
I freakin love you Glenn!
Always & Forever
With all my bumm !
Love love me.

Am gonna stsrt teching little kindergarten graduates (hahaha, graduates) to dance to Thriller during the 6 weeks hols. Or at least I'm gonna try. Oh yes, dear Glenn had his license. HAHAHA. My mother lit candles all for him at home. Apparently when he reached home that day he received a message from his godmother.
It read " Hey Glenn heard the good news. Congratulations! I heard your parents parked your present outside the corridor of Paragon, near the Gucci store. Love Godma&Godpa."

you wish babe, you wish.


And so I treated this fella, who happens to be doing his math beside me now, to dinner @ Buddy Hoagies. No noo, no pics. We're just not that type, sometimes. But when we do take pics, we're such camwhores. Oh come on like who isn't??! The money spent was so worth it. To see him happy, ahhhhhhhhhh. okay cheesy much.

have a good evening!

Thank you Jesus for such an awesome day.
It's truly a day to remember.
Today I say a prayer.
Thank you for my friends, 
My family & Glenn.

Mental that one. Ten and thousands and millions qua-tripple ga zillion people all over the globe dashed outside of their homes so that they could catch a glimpse of this 6 minute and 39 seconds, once in a lifetime event! And where was I this very morning? Sleeping in the comfort of my very own oh-so-cosy cause it was raining outside room. Mind you school started at 2pm today. I had every damn right reason to sleep in. teehee. Yeah I missed it. I missed the eclipse. And can you believe it? People actually died cause they were rushing to see the eclipse and ended up dying in a stampede. Some even fainted cause they got all excited! Amazing but true. I'm just flabbergasted by this actually. This may sound quite nerdy of me but I'm actually interested in all this out of this world extravaganva! The moon, the Earth, Orbits and stuff. I even watch The Universe on the History Channel every now and then. Sucha a waste I didn't catch it this morning. I guess sleep seemed much more important. Speaking of which, I'm gonna head for the sheets soon. Goodnight!

Oh yes, I remember someone telling me earlier on in the year that there was gonna be a tsunami in Singapore this very day. Well, I was scammed, again. Gullible Mel Gullible. Instead look who paid a visit?

There's Communication Skills & POM presentation tomorrow.
Hope you guys will enjoy!

I love you.

Well, for starters, at least we get to dress up and to be all "businessy-like"  tomorrow. Am looking forward to doll up myself for such a long time. Lately, I've been neglecting my looks and appearence in school. I always have this intention that "we go to school to study and not to look good." Unfortunately, I'm getting all twisted up now about that statement. Poly really stresses you out, not only in all the massive projects you have to do and that have to be completed like in every week but also the competition to look your best is tough. I agree, I'm not a fashionista or anything, but I always wanna look my best. Just that the stress has taken its toll on me to the point where I wear what I feel is comfortable.
Anyway, I'm going out of topic here.. I have tons of work pilling up on my desk, or rather in my brain which is even harder to eliminate.

here's a list of things that needs to be done or to be prepared for, God help me:

• Introduction to Hospitality & Tourism presentation tomorrow
• Food and Beverage group menu and wine list needs to be handed in this wed
• Principles of Management group report needs to be handed in this friday
• Communication skills group report needs to be handed in soon too
• Research in Hospitality & Tourism group report, next monday i think
• Prepare for Communication skills oral presentation
• Principles of management presentation at the end of this month
• Food and Beverage test next wed
• Introduction to Hospitality & Tourism next next tues
• Macroeconomics newspaper article analysis

the list goes on and on and on la! Okay, stop procrastinating mel! Get back to your presetation. Bye for now.

I don't know why but this somehow reminds me of when I lost my dad when I was ten years old. My gosh how time flies. My dad passed away almost 7 years ago now. I can relate to Paris in a way. Losing your dad, your rock, your soldier who will always side his little daughter ain't a pretty thing at all. A missing piece in my heart. Whilst watching this video at nearly 4am in the morning, it just brought me tears as it reminded me of what happened 7 years ago at NUH. My dad was fighting for his life and poofed, he was gone. So by watching this video, it triggered that memory in my life that I've never touched for such a very long time. It made me reflect of how far I've come. Life goes one, it really does. We feel that sense of lost and pinch of hurt now but life must go on. Everything happens for a reason.

My thoughts and prayers goes out to Jackson's 3 kids. May they overcome this lost of sunlight on a cloudy afternoon.

And to my lovely father up in Heaven, continue to shower us with your effortless blessings daddy! I love you plenty!

I know it's a little too late to say this but the passing of Michael Jackson has left a mark not just on me but on all of society. Indeed, he was a legendary icon, The King of Pop and THE GREATEST ENTERTAINER THAT HAS EVER WALKED, OR RATHER MOONWALKED, ON THIS PLANET. I managed to catch the Memorial Service of MJ at 1 am this morning. It was held at Staples Center- the place where he last performed during his rehearsal 3 weeks ago. Throughout the 2 and a half hour service, my house was filled with nothing but tears gushing out from my mother, sister and I. Celebrities gathered from all across America to commemorate such a fantastic human being. The Jackson family, all wearing shades and some even with sequenced gloves on, fought back tears on this heart-wrenching day. The highlight of the event was when his 11-year-old daughter, Paris, with whom was kept away from the public eye spoke for the first time holding back her tears and saying, "Ever since I was born, daddy has been the best father you could have ever imagine. And I just wanted to say that I love him so much." She was then walked off the stage by the entire Jackson clan, which ended the emotional ceremony.

This guy didn't just produced chart topping number one hits but gifts. Gifts from the heart, a heart so pure. Each song had a personal feel/touch of him sprinkled on them. Each song represented a message about the world, the children and of all humanity. Each song had a special vibe that made you wanna get up and imitate that crotch-grabbing, 45 degree lean, moonwalking, tippy-toeing dance he always awed us with. REMEMBER THE TIME when Michael reminded us that WE ARE THE WORLD and that we could make a change and difference in our our lives no matter if we were BLACK OR WHITE, Asians or Latinos, by simply just looking at the woman or MAN IN THE MIRROR otherwise he'll turn all BAD and tell us to BEAT IT? YOU ARE NOT ALONE in this fight for if we all COME TOGETHER, we can HEAL THE WORLD. He gave us his everything, he gave us his all. He put so much effort into everything he did for his fans. The love he gave, the amazing performances.The list goes on and on and on. He was a good Samaritan. In fact, he gave us everything to the point where he worked his butt off to produce what supposedly was his comeback tour but suffered silently and lost his very own life. Michael died. Stressed, Insomnia, Heart attack. We all had special moments about him. Inviting him into our homes through his music gave my family happiness, joy and lots of laugher. Let us not forget his younger years when he amused the world at the tender age of ten, performing and singing in his most adorable way and his afro hair. Oh Michael.

Like a rainbow fading in the twinkling of an eye, gone too soon.
I love you Michael.
Rest in Peace.